Life your life:

Everyday there is a struggle people face, its different for everyone. I wake up and am at the mercy of others to take care of me. They got to dress me, get me up, do my hair, and help me brush my teeth and put make up on. I cant do any of these everyday tasks without help.
I have to make the best out of a bad situation. I have to deal with the consequences of my actions for the rest of my life. So I just cope and deal with it.
I am in a situation that I know wont go away. I still want to live my life. It would be easy to lay back and say screw it. I admit that but you know what, it would be miserable. Why do that to yourself? Why not just try to make the best of it. There’s more still left to life. You may be surprised what you can still do. Yeah its not the same but you can still do it.
Threes no doubt things are different but you’ll find what works. I cant do some things I want but that’s just how it is. Sometimes I gotta leave a party early because im just not able to hang. Theres times my body doesn’t cooperate and I gotta fix whatever’s wrong with it. It can take away from the fun. Sometimes you have to find your own way of doing things. Adapting to your situation will get easier and you’ll be proud of yourself for doing these things.
Who I am now is not who I was. I was a party animal, loved to drink. I loved staying out all night. I loved being outside. I loved being around lots of people. Now most of that’s changed. I recently went on a float with some old friends, I didn’t drink, I didn’t stay out late and didn’t want a bunch of people around. Our group was awesome. We all got along and there was no drama or b.s. Just had a good time. I went to a party a while back and actually drank, and stayed up until one o’clock and was around lots of people. I enjoyed myself. Now granted I was wiped out and slept the whole next day. I just don’t have what I used to. That’s just the way it is.

There are days my lifeless body really bothers me. I get down and out and may even feel sorry for myself but it usually doesn’t last long. I get off my pity party and straighten up. It could be worse and I do know that.